Ever walk through one of those times when you can't make heads or tails out of what God is doing? Ever been so hungry for a word from Him but can't make out even a faint whisper? I've been finding myself in some of this confusion lately, and, frankly, I'm a little weary of it. This morning I was in a wrestling match with God. I pressed a little harder in my journal as I wrote out my complaint. And I walked away empty handed...no insight...no understanding.
Then I checked my e-mail. In my inbox I saw an unusual sight...an e-mail from one of my dearest friends. Monica has never quite gotten the hang of e-mail. She might possibly be the worst e-mailer I know. So a message from her in my inbox really got my attention. She wrote:
"Tammy,
Once again, God uses my lack of timing with email to be in perfect timing with His will. I listened to the song that you sent me this am..."
I have to admit, I was a little confused at this point. Song I had sent her? What was she talking about? It took me a minute to remember that I had in fact sent her a song...like 6 weeks ago. She went on to tell me about some tough stuff that had happened last night. The song "came" at a perfect time to speak to her hurting heart. She concluded:
"...your song was perfect and He used it to remind me that no matter what, I will still praise my Savior. Thank you dear friend for pointing me to Jesus.
i love you, Monica marie"
So this was my Word from God this morning. A song that I had sent 6 weeks ago to encourage a friend came back to me at just the right time. The words I had meant for another were meant for me too. For any of you who might find yourself walking through the murikiness right now, maybe these words will mean something to you as well (if you'd like me to send you the mp3 of the song, leave a comment with your e-mail address)...
When The Tears Fall
by Tim Hughes
album: When Silence Falls (2004)
I've had questions without answers
I've known sorrow, I have known pain
But there's one thing that I cling to
You are faithful, Jesus You're true
When hope is lost
I call You Saviour
When pain surrounds
I call You Healer
When silence falls
You'll be the song within my heart
In the lone hour of my sorrow
Through the darkest night of my soul
You surround me, You sustain me
My defender for ever more
When hope is lost
I call You Saviour
When pain surrounds
I call You Healer
When silence falls
You'll be the song within my heart
And I will praise You
I will Praise You
When the tears fall
Still I will sing to You
I will praise You
Jesus praise You
Through the suffering
Still I will sing to You
When hope is lost
I call You Saviour
When pain surrounds
I call You Healer
When silence falls
You'll be the song within my heart
I will praise You
I will praise You
When the tears fall
Still I will sing to you
I will praise You
Jesus I will praise You
Through the suffering
Still I will sing to you
When the laughter fails to comfort
When my heart aches, Lord are you there
When confusion is all around me
And the darkness is my closest friend
Still I'll praise You
Jesus praise You